Tuesday, April 21, 2009

a special little story

I GOT THIS STORY IN MY EMAIL AND I WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH YOU GUYS.


"Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake and mountains in the background. A boat floated in the water and beautiful houses lined the shores. There were flowers and trees, lovers strolling arm in arm and people walking their dogs.



As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

Once the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.



Time passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone. Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.

It faced a blank wall.



The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate to describe such wonderful things outside the window. The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.



There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.
Today is a gift; that is why it is called 'the Present.'
"

Saturday, April 11, 2009

this too will pass

Earlier i wrote about how stressed out i was. I was lacking faith. I went to church and it made me feel alot better. It put me back on track. This is what i left with.

*FEED YOUR FAITH && STARVE YOUR DOUBTS
*FEAR TOLERATED IS FAITH CONTAMINATED
*I RECOGNIZE THAT TESTS COME IN LIFE BUT GOD IS FAITHFUL... 1 CORINTHIANS 10:13
*EVERY TRIAL HAS AN EXPIRATION DATE
*GOD WILL PROVIDE THE RIGHT OPPORTUNITY WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT

take it how you want. i dont wanna explain it because i kno what it means to me. Now im feeling like a winner because I am winning. My heart is fixed I trust God. My stripes are healed. :)

big ole cry baby

NO FAITH,,,
NO STRENGTH,,,
LOWER THAN LOW,,,

I don't understand how my life got to the place its at. I'm always mad, upset, discontent. I'm disconnected fom myself. I keep fuckin crying and its pissing me off. I cried yesterday on the bus on the train while I was walking. I woke up this morning crying and haven't stopped since. I'm a big fuckin crybaby. I hate the life I'm living. I wish there was a fast forward button. Its stressful. I try to have faith but I'm losing it. Optimism is not working. A million interviews and another apartment lost. I'm gonna be 21 with nothing. Frustrated!!! This isn't the life I planned. I honestly didn't see it coming. I miss my old life. I miss school, I miss working, I miss independence. I miss being tired from days with not enough hours. I miss being to bizzy for myself. Now I'm just sick and tired. Where did I go.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

musically beautiful

he made beautiful sounds
with his fingers
it was like the strings were his bestfriends
better yet his wives striving to be better then the next
competing to get his touch
fighting but not realizing they work well together
and his voice was
unexplainable
it gave me a feeling of joy
the type of happiness that
brings tears to your eyes
peaceful harmonies jolted
with electricity
with melodies that calmed the soul yet uneased the mind
and when the two are put together
its the forth of july
its the best sex you ever had
its winning the lottery
when the jackpot is noooow 3 hundred thousand million trillion dollars
raw music bringing out raw emotion
drawing me closer
wishing i could put him in my stereo
but left with onli a beautiful memory
of a street peddler
wishing for the first time
that the train didnt come
hoping that the sound will
force themselves through the doors
like it did into my heart
into the soul
hoping that i bump into you
i mean into him again
and if not
please let this sound make it to the airways
and out of my stereo
so i can hear wat emotions
sound like
coming out as beautiful music
echoed by the raspy
yet smooth bluesy yet rasta
chords that release your vocals
along with you fingers
that meet the string maybe a bit to often
releasing your message
your me. my needs my struggles
you your thoughts from my brain
restin upon ears of strangers strangy
not thinkin
not listening
but im singing the same things
my poetry into your lyrics damn
hope to see you around mr.strummer man
hear you around i'll be waiting
anticipating

Friday, March 20, 2009

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i missed my betsy boop o so much lol. i lost her we both changed our numbers but i found her on myspace lol. we worked together && got laid off together. so it was onli right to go on a job search together. so we spent the day @ a job fair a jacob javitz center.

A DAY IN THE LIVES OF
EMMA CHRISTINE && BETSY BLANCO


1st. we met up @ wendy's on 34th st&8th
2nd. we were on a worldwide search to find somewhere to print out her resume.
3rd. after travelin the nyc world we found somewhere!!!
4th. then we charmed the kinkos guy to print us free resumes on pretty resume paper. he gave us 5 :)
5th. lol she spent her a whole $5 bill to print out 2dollars worth of resumes damn homie i feel for u lol we planned on sellin the otha $3 to a customer but we had to leave:(
6th.we finally made it
7th. umm we laughed @ the guys who couldnt get in because they didnt have on a tie
8th. we looked @ the coat check && laughed yea right $3 i think i'll be wearing mine hmphh
9th. the mission begins
10th. its hot as hell && im ready to go lol
11th. we argue over wether water or soda is the real thirst quencher
12th. we thirstyyyyyyy && they got water but its not free
13th. we hand out resemes lol && betsy boop asks one of the ladies for her water lol she succeeeds
14th. we dodge all the long lines lol
15th. we bullshit the companies into being interested in us
16th. we realize they bullshittin us back"o wow thats great im gonna take ur resume && definitly give you a call" yea we caught on.
17th. betsy avoids all the female resume takers
18th. im starving!!! && they have fortune cookies but...its only at the graduate booths suckersssssssss
19th.betsy is thirsty and admits that soda is more thirst quenching
20th. we scheme on knocking over the soda cart && taking a coke...the cart pusher guy notices us watching the soda && laughs...BUSTED!!!
21st.betsy waits to talk to the resume guy...she lets 5ppl skip her before she gives up && talks to the girl......the resume guy is finished talkin to who he was talkin to as soon as she gives up lol
22nd. i go to a booth and know nothing about it. the lady asks me why i want to work there. i say im interested in working with....looks up @ the sign...BUSTED lmao she laughs and says you forgot. i say yup im interested in finding a job lol
23rd. we get on the mta line its od long we hop off
24th. we walk around and end up talking to a guy about a teaching position....ITS IN MARYLAND...betsy is ready to dip lol i smile and nod && he never stops flippin talkin then another teaching guy approaches && he doesnt stop either...i look at betsy she looks back at me i bite my lip so i wont start laughing....then we finally get away!!!
25th.we end up back on the mta line my suggestion
26th. i catch an attitude withthe resume lady lol she takes my resume and i stole it back lol it was the good resume paper can u blame me she didnt need it i got the info i needed
27th.BESTY BLANCO&&EMMA CHRISTINE EXIT!!!
28th.we stroll nyc takin pics of eachother like tourist
29th. discuss how broke we are due to our departure from AX and pray that we got a job somewhere today
30th. get to the A train && go our seperate ways byee Betsy Boop

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QUESTION @ THE END OF THE DAY...
if Betsy Blanco got married to a guy with the lastname White would she have to change her lastname?

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

i want it raw!/!/!


get that condom off, i want it raw
nothing standing in between us
just me&&you&&you&&I, trust me
stop tryna protect yaself im not gonna burn you
i plan on keeping you warm
take that condom off, i want it raw
wat you tryna protect yaself for?
you scared imma trap you?
you can go if you please
but once you get that condom off
you aint neva gonna wanna leave
is that the problem?
you dont wanna trap yaself?
i'll be ya protection baby
you wont need nobody else
i want it raw, passionate && intense
take that condom off
let me give it to you the way i want it
the way you need it
the way we deserve it
dont you wanna feel all of me
cuz i wanna feel all of you
i know you do
dont fight it
give it to me raw
take that condom off...
ya heart<3
&& give me all of you.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Beat it up. Or get beat up.

sexually oppressed
sexually depressed
beat it up. or get beat up!/!/!

aggressivly sexual
sexually aggressual
beat it up. or get beat up!/!/!

sometimes i wanna smash you in ya face
cuz all i want is to get smashed up in my waist
beat it up
or imma use ya face && make ya eat it up
AGGRESSIVLY SEXUAL
DONT GET BEAT UP!/!/!

but you can beat it up
matta fact make sure ya eat it up.


sexually oppressed
dont wanna be sexually depressed

COME ON && JUST BEAT IT UP!/!/!