musically beautiful

he made beautiful sounds
with his fingers
it was like the strings were his bestfriends
better yet his wives striving to be better then the next
competing to get his touch
fighting but not realizing they work well together
and his voice was
unexplainable
it gave me a feeling of joy
the type of happiness that
brings tears to your eyes
peaceful harmonies jolted
with electricity
with melodies that calmed the soul yet uneased the mind
and when the two are put together
its the forth of july
its the best sex you ever had
its winning the lottery
when the jackpot is noooow 3 hundred thousand million trillion dollars
raw music bringing out raw emotion
drawing me closer
wishing i could put him in my stereo
but left with onli a beautiful memory
of a street peddler
wishing for the first time
that the train didnt come
hoping that the sound will
force themselves through the doors
like it did into my heart
into the soul
hoping that i bump into you
i mean into him again
and if not
please let this sound make it to the airways
and out of my stereo
so i can hear wat emotions
sound like
coming out as beautiful music
echoed by the raspy
yet smooth bluesy yet rasta
chords that release your vocals
along with you fingers
that meet the string maybe a bit to often
releasing your message
your me. my needs my struggles
you your thoughts from my brain
restin upon ears of strangers strangy
not thinkin
not listening
but im singing the same things
my poetry into your lyrics damn
hope to see you around mr.strummer man
hear you around i'll be waiting
anticipating

i missed my betsy boop o so much lol. i lost her we both changed our numbers but i found her on myspace lol. we worked together && got laid off together. so it was onli right to go on a job search together. so we spent the day @ a job fair a jacob javitz center.

A DAY IN THE LIVES OF
EMMA CHRISTINE && BETSY BLANCO

1st. we met up @ wendy's on 34th st&8th
2nd. we were on a worldwide search to find somewhere to print out her resume.
3rd. after travelin the nyc world we found somewhere!!!
4th. then we charmed the kinkos guy to print us free resumes on pretty resume paper. he gave us 5 :)
5th. lol she spent her a whole $5 bill to print out 2dollars worth of resumes damn homie i feel for u lol we planned on sellin the otha $3 to a customer but we had to leave:(
6th.we finally made it
7th. umm we laughed @ the guys who couldnt get in because they didnt have on a tie
8th. we looked @ the coat check && laughed yea right $3 i think i'll be wearing mine hmphh
9th. the mission begins
10th. its hot as hell && im ready to go lol
11th. we argue over wether water or soda is the real thirst quencher
12th. we thirstyyyyyyy && they got water but its not free
13th. we hand out resemes lol && betsy boop asks one of the ladies for her water lol she succeeeds
14th. we dodge all the long lines lol
15th. we bullshit the companies into being interested in us
16th. we realize they bullshittin us back"o wow thats great im gonna take ur resume && definitly give you a call" yea we caught on.
17th. betsy avoids all the female resume takers
18th. im starving!!! && they have fortune cookies but...its only at the graduate booths suckersssssssss
19th.betsy is thirsty and admits that soda is more thirst quenching
20th. we scheme on knocking over the soda cart && taking a coke...the cart pusher guy notices us watching the soda && laughs...BUSTED!!!
21st.betsy waits to talk to the resume guy...she lets 5ppl skip her before she gives up && talks to the girl......the resume guy is finished talkin to who he was talkin to as soon as she gives up lol
22nd. i go to a booth and know nothing about it. the lady asks me why i want to work there. i say im interested in working with....looks up @ the sign...BUSTED lmao she laughs and says you forgot. i say yup im interested in finding a job lol
23rd. we get on the mta line its od long we hop off
24th. we walk around and end up talking to a guy about a teaching position....ITS IN MARYLAND...betsy is ready to dip lol i smile and nod && he never stops flippin talkin then another teaching guy approaches && he doesnt stop either...i look at betsy she looks back at me i bite my lip so i wont start laughing....then we finally get away!!!
25th.we end up back on the mta line my suggestion
26th. i catch an attitude withthe resume lady lol she takes my resume and i stole it back lol it was the good resume paper can u blame me she didnt need it i got the info i needed
27th.BESTY BLANCO&&EMMA CHRISTINE EXIT!!!
28th.we stroll nyc takin pics of eachother like tourist
29th. discuss how broke we are due to our departure from AX and pray that we got a job somewhere today
30th. get to the A train && go our seperate ways byee Betsy Boop



QUESTION @ THE END OF THE DAY...
if Betsy Blanco got married to a guy with the lastname White would she have to change her lastname?

i want it raw!/!/!

get that condom off, i want it raw
nothing standing in between us
just me&&you&&you&&I, trust me
stop tryna protect yaself im not gonna burn you
i plan on keeping you warm
take that condom off, i want it raw
wat you tryna protect yaself for?
you scared imma trap you?
you can go if you please
but once you get that condom off
you aint neva gonna wanna leave
is that the problem?
you dont wanna trap yaself?
i'll be ya protection baby
you wont need nobody else
i want it raw, passionate && intense
take that condom off
let me give it to you the way i want it
the way you need it
the way we deserve it
dont you wanna feel all of me
cuz i wanna feel all of you
i know you do
dont fight it
give it to me raw
take that condom off...
ya heart<3
&& give me all of you.

Beat it up. Or get beat up.

sexually oppressed
sexually depressed
beat it up. or get beat up!/!/!

aggressivly sexual
sexually aggressual
beat it up. or get beat up!/!/!

sometimes i wanna smash you in ya face
cuz all i want is to get smashed up in my waist
beat it up
or imma use ya face && make ya eat it up
AGGRESSIVLY SEXUAL
DONT GET BEAT UP!/!/!

but you can beat it up
matta fact make sure ya eat it up.


sexually oppressed
dont wanna be sexually depressed

COME ON && JUST BEAT IT UP!/!/!

REDEDICATION...

i stepped into this place
greeted by many smiling faces
faces that say come in and stay awhile

i walked in and looked around at all the seats
empty, filled, now its my time to find my place
smack dab in the middle center
where i always like to sit when im in MSG
as the time passed the seats began to fill
but i wasnt thinking about people i was thinking about getting the message

then it came to me
first it came to me through song
through happy and exciting words then through calm words
either way they were for me especially made just for me

then another message came
came through Creflo
it didnt matter that the Wamu was full
because he was speaking directly to me to my heart
and i let my tears flow i let them come out
and i was comfortable because those hundreds of people felt what i felt

&& i missed that feeling
the feeling of belonging of being at the right place at the right time
i forgot how it felt to feel alive and at peace

i will never forget that feeling again
because i rededictaed myself to GOD

mind ramblings!!!

hey blogger its been a while. so lets see wats goin on in my life. hmmm so much of a little bit. good&&bad, ups&&downs. blah blah blah lol. i went to the hospital to see why i've been coughing for a month. and after bein in the hospital EMERGENCY room from 7pm to 3am the result was Bronchitis. yup so i've got an inhaler now smh. && the first couple of days taking it was horrible!!! i felt like a pregnant woman in her first trimester can we say NAUSEOUS. it made me not ever want to get pregnant. i also got sum pills last day taking them is tomorrow yayyyy. && they gave me nasty ass Robitussin. CHERRY FLAVOR aka ASS IN A BOTTLE. so im just waiting for this to be over. I HATE BEIN SICK. ummm wat else well i found an apartment yayy but its onli a studio boooo. but ive decided to stop bein so picky, stubborn, siddity, watever you wanna call it. not gettin my hopes up to high let you kno wats goin on with that the results are in on Wednesday. i lost my boo. you know the one i was writting about on the vday shit. so sad butttt i'll get over it. everything happens for a reason. if its meant to be it'll be. lol so cliche but hey im getting over it. a book is getting me thru it. i love books!!! well my bestie is living my love life one step behind me lol. but she always poppin shit about me. emma ur so demanding blah blah blah. so wat? i kno wat i want and i will get it........eventually. i came to the conclusion to live my life like im 20 and stop worrying about bein that old lady living alone with cats lol. but i mean im not the type of person that is content with a bunch of niggas feeding different needs. wtf lol i just want loyalty. happiness. shit i want my bestie wrapped up into a boi i mean MAN lol but of course with a few more things she couldn't do wink wink lol.but guess wat im losing weight!!! idk if i should be happy or sad. my tummy's gettin smaller but so is my booty lol im currently wearing baggy jeans wtf they used to fit so nice ughhh. but then again im losin my belly. im bout to start working out guys. top model season 13 is takin 5'7 && under i need to get in shape. lol. anyways im in the mood for church. my spirit needs emotional healing sooooo im on my way to MSG to see Creflo do his thing. byeeeeee