mind ramblings!!!

hey blogger its been a while. so lets see wats goin on in my life. hmmm so much of a little bit. good&&bad, ups&&downs. blah blah blah lol. i went to the hospital to see why i've been coughing for a month. and after bein in the hospital EMERGENCY room from 7pm to 3am the result was Bronchitis. yup so i've got an inhaler now smh. && the first couple of days taking it was horrible!!! i felt like a pregnant woman in her first trimester can we say NAUSEOUS. it made me not ever want to get pregnant. i also got sum pills last day taking them is tomorrow yayyyy. && they gave me nasty ass Robitussin. CHERRY FLAVOR aka ASS IN A BOTTLE. so im just waiting for this to be over. I HATE BEIN SICK. ummm wat else well i found an apartment yayy but its onli a studio boooo. but ive decided to stop bein so picky, stubborn, siddity, watever you wanna call it. not gettin my hopes up to high let you kno wats goin on with that the results are in on Wednesday. i lost my boo. you know the one i was writting about on the vday shit. so sad butttt i'll get over it. everything happens for a reason. if its meant to be it'll be. lol so cliche but hey im getting over it. a book is getting me thru it. i love books!!! well my bestie is living my love life one step behind me lol. but she always poppin shit about me. emma ur so demanding blah blah blah. so wat? i kno wat i want and i will get it........eventually. i came to the conclusion to live my life like im 20 and stop worrying about bein that old lady living alone with cats lol. but i mean im not the type of person that is content with a bunch of niggas feeding different needs. wtf lol i just want loyalty. happiness. shit i want my bestie wrapped up into a boi i mean MAN lol but of course with a few more things she couldn't do wink wink lol.but guess wat im losing weight!!! idk if i should be happy or sad. my tummy's gettin smaller but so is my booty lol im currently wearing baggy jeans wtf they used to fit so nice ughhh. but then again im losin my belly. im bout to start working out guys. top model season 13 is takin 5'7 && under i need to get in shape. lol. anyways im in the mood for church. my spirit needs emotional healing sooooo im on my way to MSG to see Creflo do his thing. byeeeeee